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Divination

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If I could
I would pull back the fabric
of the universe and the divine.
Search the pin pricks of stars,
watch the cusp of each house,
the movement of the moon,
and explain that mercury in retrograde
has no bearing on this.

I would scry with fire.
Loose flames burning away
a small sacrifice.
A payment for my eyes to see
something more than bright amber
dancing before us.

I would pluck a strand
from what’s left of your hair
and place it inside a doll.
The black button eyes watching
as I pray to hear you cough less and
push white pins into cancerous lungs.

I would take your hand in mine.
Running my finger along your palm
and the shortened life line.
Explain that the circle wrapping
around it near the end stands
for infinity, not pain.

If I could
I would give you an answer.
Something more definite than
“I’m sure you’ll be okay.”
Instead, I glance at the inside of your mug
covered in the remains of a tea bag.
Watch as the crushed leaves swirl
in warm water and the blood
you spat into it.

This poem was originally published in the Mystery issue of Popshot Magazine

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My YouTube Channel! 🍁🍂

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There is something about October that rekindles the creative flow for me. It’s the perfect time after the harvest (both real and spiritual) and before the soft dormancy of winter.

So, in the spirit of Octobers and colorful leaves, I started my Youtube channel and joined authortube. My goal is to complete the first draft of my contemporary romance novel, Project Bell, by the end of November. The channel will include other writing and poetry-focused videos while I edit Project Bell for the rest of 2024.

I used to be scared of putting myself out there, and in some ways, I still am. But instead of being a nervous rabbit running for their burrow, I will hang out and watch the leaves fall. Maybe nibble on a dandelion leaf or something. Oh, and write a book.

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List of Publications

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“POV”The Elevation Review

“I romanticize being gone”  — Molecule Magazine

“Frenchmen Street”Jerry Jazz Musician

“I dream of a house I’ll never have”Mass Poetry’s Hard Work of Hope Series

“Parkway and Po’ Boys”Kissing Dynamite Magazine

“Divination”Popshot Magazine

“What They Have In Common”littledeath literary

“Denature”Black Heart Magazine

“In the exhibit” — Peabody Essex Museum Blog

“April 17th” Poetry Quarterly

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Philando Castile

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I’ve watched
too many movies with
prosthetic heads exploding
gory scenes and blood splashing
the camera for effect
as the hero saves the world,
too many viral videos shared
through Facebook
for laughs
to cringe at

So when I watch
the red that pools out over his
white t-shirt it doesn’t look real.
“Please don’t tell me my boyfriend is dead.”
The blood dripping from his
mouth doesn’t look real.
I can’t comprehend it.
The idea
that this is real
is too much.

I watch this.
You watch this.
Lavish watched it.
The 4 year old little girl
in the back watched it.
Philando’s shallow breaths and
dimming eyes watched it
as his head slips back between the seats
his arm bending deeper at the elbow
4 holes weeping blood
pleading up to the officer.

“Keep your hands where they are. Don’t touch him.”
The barrel of the officer’s gun
continues to stare.

I weep silently on the train
as the screen goes dark.

“Lord, he didn’t deserve this.”
I hear her screaming.
“We’re innocent people.”
I hear her praying.

“Please Jesus, no. Please no.
Please no, don’t let him be gone.”

Philando is gone.

It’s not a movie with special effects
no miracles, no plot twists.
It’s not a video to be shared
across your feed
for a laugh
to cringe at

We sat there and together
we watched an innocent man die.

Don’t forget that.

Don’t ever forget that you watched
Philando’s last breaths,
blood spilling from his mouth.

Don’t ever forget that could be you
dying in the driver’s seat.

We all watched Philando die today.

We all watched an innocent, Black man die today.

And we can no longer just keep watching.

(I originally posted this on Facebook after seeing the video of Philando’s execution and crying on the train home. Deaths like Philando’s and hundreds of others continue to happen across the country, and in turn we must continue to take action in whatever forms available to us.)

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How to Find Time to Write

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“You have the same hours as Beyoncé.” 

Many of us have heard some version of that phrase over the years. Instead of motivating, I always found it kind of stressful. 

Because let’s be honest, we are not even in the same stratosphere as Queen B. 

And as this Inc. article points out, we don’t have the same level of support as our favorite celebrity or even a famous full-time author. The way they can use their time isn’t the same as the rest of us in the daily grind.

While it’s not easy, we can find the time and the motivation to write. It won’t look like our idols or even our peers, but we can do it. Here are four ways to find more time to concentrate on your art. 

1. Put It In Your Calendar

One of the best pieces of advice from productivity hackers is scheduling time in your calendar for an item on your to-do list. And that goes for writing too. 

Yup. Easy enough…except you have to follow through and commit to the schedule. Keep in mind this doesn’t need to be a strenuous, 6-hour-a-day writing block. Do what you can and build from there. If you can only write for 20 minutes every other day, that’s great! Put it in your calendar. Then you have the time set aside for you and your writing. You’re committed. 

On the days I was real tempted to stay scrolling on Instagram, I would pretend I was meeting another person so I’d follow through. Someone you don’t want to disappoint by being flakey and sending a text last minute to cancel. And if your imagination is only available for your writing and not playing pretend, you can find a real person too.

2. Find an Accountability Partner (or a few hundred)

Okay, so you tried scheduling time in the calendar for yourself. You’ve dreamed about your characters all day during work. You even scribbled something down during lunch (yay!). The calendar notification dings at 7 pm, but you’re still not able to sit down and clack away at the keyboard. 

So to stay on track, ask another writer friend to be your accountability partner. Having a partner can work at the gym, and so it certainly can work with writing which is it’s own mental gymnastics. Sometimes when I’d need that extra push, I’d get on a Zoom call with a fellow writer. We would chit-chat for a few minutes, do a little catching up, and then dive into our work. During a mini-break, it was nice to say, “Hey, I finished this part of my outline!” or “500 words already! YES!”

You can also find a local writing group to join, like I did. Or you can join an online writing group such as Write About Now Poetry and their write and chill sessions.

Even if a friend isn’t available, you can use social media to your advantage to build accountability. Use hashtags like: #writewithme #wordcount #writingcommunity and let people know your word count goal for the day and if you hit it. 

3. Race the Clock

My brain thrives on a deadline. Part of it is panic because there is a consequence to not writing. On the flip side, when we have the entire afternoon– suddenly it’s 10 pm, Netflix is asking if you’re still there, and there are still 1000 words to write. 

Knowing how my brain works, I race the clock instead to activate a similar feeling of a deadline but without the anxiety. 

I’ll take a minute or two to decide what scene to work on and a word count goal. Then using the Pomodoro technique, I’ll set a timer for 25 minutes, pick a playlist, and focus only on the goal I’ve set. Once the timer chimes, I give myself a 5-minute break to stretch, scroll through Tiktok, or fill up my water bottle. Then when the break is over, I can sit down and see I wrote a whole page. 

Whether you only have 10 minutes to write or an entire day, this is a great technique to focus on your writing.

4. Stop Waiting for Perfection (It ain’t happening)

I used to wait until I had the optimal writing conditions. Along with my cup of coffee and a lit candle, I had to wake up and write by 10 am or the day was over and I couldn’t write. Sorry, I don’t make the irrational brain rules. Perfectionism and procrastination go hand in hand pretty frequently. 

As hard as it is, letting go of the idea of perfection is one of the most freeing things you can do. After all, there is no such thing as a perfect writing session, draft, or sentence.

We can grab any opportunity to write and make progress. And I promise, it still counts.

It can be jotting down a scene in the notes app while in line at Trader Joe’s or sitting in the dentist waiting room. Even recording a quick voice note is better than forgetting the amazing snippet of dialogue you came up with.

We’re still creating even if we only have 5 minutes to scribble something on a post-it note. All those moments and words will add up to something substantial. As long as the work exists and it’s on the page, you’ve done the easy part. Next is sitting down to edit which can be a bit more challenging, and I’ll cover that in another post soon.

So as Beyonce said herself: “Don’t talk about what you’re gonna do. Don’t just dream about what you’re gonna do. Don’t criticize somebody else for what they’re not doing. You, be it.”

Now before you open up your current WIP, share down below some of the unique ways you find time to write.